Space

I was writing a facebook status update about Holes/Spaces/Gaps and noticed the song I was listening to had 'Holes' in it's title and then a thought broke through my consciousness, ever since I returned from Youth/Young Adults camp (Encounter Camp) I realised that a lot of people have been using a common statement, which goes a little something like; "We have spent a week being filled, now it's time to pour out."

See regular people, maybe even you reading this right now (yes you reader!) may only see this as a statement about being filled and pouring out, instead I see it as eluding to the idea that to be filled there must first be a gap or space or hole. Now bear with me, basically I'll just be spilling onto my blog my thoughts and ponderings, maybe even some musings.

So as anyone who has needed information, definitions and even help I turned to google after which I came up with the following definitions:

Space: "You use space to refer to an area that is empty or available. The area can be any size. For example, you can refer to a large area outside as a large open space or to a small area between two objects as a small space."

A hole is defined as: an unoccupied space

Gap: "Something missing from a situation that prevents it being complete or satisfactory."

Now I know you're all(all 3 of you) thinking here comes another God is the only thing to fill the gap or hole in your heart, but alas dear readers I do not dare repeat myself on the subject, instead as I stated above, this post will be the result of a thought process reaching my higher thinking processes after emerging from my subconscious.

So as to my earlier postulation that being filled requires first a space that is empty i.e. a hole. As well as for us to pour out into others, it requires them to have a hole in their lives/hearts. So I think to myself where have others/when have others talked about holes and gaps and spaces, and I come to think of three type of people; Musicians, Poets and Scientists. Musicians often sing about the emptiness in their lives that keeps them unhappy -- refer back to definition of Gap, Poets talk about the space between themselves and their loved ones/lost loved ones or the space left in their lives after they leave -- refer back to definition of Space or Hole, and Scientists (some scientists) study and discuss the space between atoms, remember everything is made up of atoms, and yet there are vast 'spaces' between them -- again refer to definition of space.

Now again I ponder the differences, you must understand scientists tell us there are gaps between atoms, yet you and I aren't incomplete physically so is the definition of a gap wrong or is it fundamentally different in this scenario? Musicians also have gaps in their lives as we can determine from their dissatisfaction but isn't satisfaction really in the eye of the beholder? An orphaned African child on the verge of starvation would see the life of a pampered Musician without the gaps they so often sing of? Does this mean there aren't any gaps in the Musicians life or are gaps also relative?

Yes I am totally crazy, yes my mind thinks up the most strange things, and yes I do enjoy my ponderings and thinking.

Maybe by reading this you are one step closer to understanding the complex being that is Conor. Maybe you are so confused and still waiting for some kind of conclusion that you don't know if I'm clinically insane or just really bored...

Either way hope you enjoyed reading and I'll see you next time my faithful 3 readers... ha ha

C.

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Why

Why do i have to be like this?
why do i have to act like this?
why do i continue to do this again and again?
WHY!?