Something I was randomly pondering

As humans we often get so many things wrong, one thing we are blatantly wrong about is how we discover ourselves, how we learn about who we are, what we can do etc.



If this matchbox car wants to find out about itself, The best it can do is try to drive over different terrain, by driving on two wheels, driving backward or forward, by asking (this is a metaphor) another car what it is called, it does not discover much more than whether it drives on what terrain, whether it is suited to driving on 2 or 4 wheels and it's brand name and model name. This might be ok for a while but when it wants to find out more, who made it, what it is made of, it can't will that information into being, instead it needs to find it's creator. From whom it can find out exactly what it's made out of, why and how it's made, from which model wheels it uses to the specific mixture of plastics that make up it's body. 

In the same way, we humans try traveling different paths in life, try different sexualities, religions, cliques and lifestyles. We ask others to define us, we seek classification and destination. But from these things and people we cannot truly learn much about ourselves, so ultimately we must, like that matchbox car go to our creator, the one who molded us, breathed life in us, who knows how many hairs are on our heads, who has a plan and a purpose for us, in who we can find definition, classification and most importantly; HOPE. 

Stop looking inward at yourself to find who you are, what you should do and where you should go, instead  look to your creator who can tell you who you are, your worth, what you are to do with this life and where you should go in life. 
I can tell you now, seeking different lifestyles or cliques or religions will NOT allow you to find what it is you are seeking, hear me right now, get this:

The hope your heart longs after, the purpose and sense of belonging can ONLY truly be found in the loving arms of our Saviour and Lord Jesus Christ. Anything else is but a facade of fulfillment and hope. Don't settle for a less than satisfying replacement seek after Him who molded you and shaped you, who loves you not because of you, but in spite of you.


So that's what has been bouncing around my skull since thursday, ha ha.

It's hard to imagine right?

It's hard to imagine, It's hard to understand not wanting to go home.
To see that father so cold and distant, that brother that's never liked it but is too much like his father. The daughter that is selfish and vain. The mother who always yells and never see's him work, it's hard to imagine that he doesn't want to go home.

It's hard to imagine his relationships going well, when he comes from a cold and distant home, it's hard to imagine him loving another when he can't love his family.

But what's harder to imagine is WHAT IS REALLY happening; it's hard to imagine a father who works so hard who comes home so tired and he can't catch a break and they keep wanting more, why can't they see, why is it so hard to imagine what I'm doing for you?

It's hard to imagine a mother who does so much, it's hard to imagine how the frustration feels when all she does is thrown back in her face, when she does so much and tries so hard and all they do is keep asking me for more, what can't they help me?

It's hard to imagine a son seeing in himself the thing he hates to see in his father, it's hard to imagine how he strives to succeed and to provide, to be like the best in his father but only sees the worst in himself, to wonder why can't they see the good in me?

It's hard to imagine a daughter who feels so alone, it's hard to imagine a daughter so starved of love, who comes home and just wants to be told she's loved. To be told she's beautiful, why don't they love me?

It's just so hard to imagine a son so lost, so hurt and so broken who sees in his family so much pain and brokenness so much frustration and weariness, who in himself sees all their worst. Why can't I just be a good son and brother?

It's hard to imagine wanting to go home to a family tearing apart at the seems, it's hard to imagine a family so lost in themselves they can't find each other and make their way home.

It's hard to imagine right?


I wrote this the other day. In my opinion to make a family work, to make relationships work we need to be able to walk in the other persons shoes, whether literally or simply be able to imagine the position they are in.

"A house divided against itself cannot stand" - Abraham Lincoln

It's time for a lot of people to open their eyes and realise in their broken relationships and families, they aren't the only ones hurting, I'm not saying they are wrong, just that understanding and compromise is needed.

We don't need Saving?

I was again procrastinating assignments this morning when a conversation crossed my mind; so as to set the scene:

It was 7:30am(ish) on a wednesday morning 3 weeks ago there was bout 6-10 guys talking and chilling with coffee after man-prayer (HOORAH!) and Adam brought up a discussion about the new series about to start -Make War!, and we ended up talking about war movies then on to our favourite movies, and Adam says there is such a theme of redemption in every movie, a character doesn't want to help, and is borderline bad, but has a heart change and turns around and saves the day.

Timewarp back to this morning, and I was just pondering this, and I thought yes there is the redemption theme, but more so is there a Saviour theme. What Saviour theme is that Conor? Gee I'm glad you ask! What I mean is, and I've said it before, movies, books, tv shows and a lot of other formats and genre's of entertainment have a main focal character that you warm to because they are a leader and courageous although a little out there and they fight for what is right and good and just, and climax of the movie they die for the cause, only to empower the former followers to greatness and to be deified by said followers.

Now snap to 1882, a book is published: "Die fröhliche Wissenschaft" (The Gay Science...he he) Friedrich Neitzsche states that "Gott ist tot" (God is dead).
Now he doesn't mean dead like how Jesus died on the Cross, but that no more wisdom or knowledge is to be found from religion or any 'god' and as such to take God from a christian belief system the entire system is broken and the purpose and morals are stolen from the ex-believer.

Now again back to current times and we see the world lost and broken, but in it's eyes better than ever, and it is; however it isn't good to one who has had their eyes opened (Christians) as we see that the self-serving, I am my own God, I don't need to be saved way of the world is real and is actually hurting it more than making it 'better'.

So now to tie it all together, in a world that serves self and deifies self and teaches others to do the same, in a world that denies the need for a Saviour, why is it they are so desperate for one? why is it that every movie (within reason) has a saviour figure, why is it that action heroes are so popular and why is it that societies deify sporting figures and 'celebrities' to "heroes" to role models to veritable Saviours. See in my opinion the world doesn't need to be saved from individuality and freedom of thought by so called sporting heroes and celebrity role-models.
The world NEEDS a Saviour, to call them to Him just as they are, to always Love them and always be there for them. I found that in God, in a relationship with Christ. Yet the world has been sold a lie, has been sold a set of rules and values and a 'belief-system' a religion that is not what God intended for us, and with this rip-off religion(s) the world is so turned off of even an idea of a God or Saviour, yet they can't see themselves crying to be saved, and not looking for a Saviour but a hero, another human being who has been deified because of acting or sporting prowess.

I ask you, is there really no need for a God?
Is there really no need for a Saviour?

--open your window, look out with open eyes and open ears and an open heart and hear humanity screaming, crying for a saviour and looking at self and man, instead of looking to God... maybe they need some signs to lead the way..?